Five Minute Friday~ Last

I have been thinking about “lasts” a lot this past week.

The last time I kissed his cheek.

The last time I held his hand.

The last time he told me he loved me.

The last time I heard his voice.

I have been waiting for the phone call all week. The one that will tell me he has breathed his last.

And sometimes I can barely breathe with the ache of this losing.

He is my Daddy.  The last one to tuck me in bed when I was a little girl. The last one to wave goodbye when I got on the bus for a summer adventure. The last one to call when I had a final exam the next day.

Yesterday, we celebrated his last anniversary. He has had his last Thanksgiving and Christmas and birthday.

Is it possible?

We used to have scripture quoting competitions. And he would always have the last verse. He lived to bring God glory. He hungered and thirsted for righteousness. He faithfully loved God.

Deep down I know that memories of him will last. He has left a legacy that is deep and wide. His life has impacted many.

He will be remembered in the stories we write about him. His words that he painstakingly wrote for his sermons will last forever. We will see glimpses of him in each other and in his grandchildren.

I have no doubt that his impact will continue long after he is gone.

I love you so much, Daddy! You have made a lasting impression on my life. I will miss you- more than I can even express- but I rejoice in knowing that you will finally be with Jesus. Thank you for your faithfulness in writing down your thoughts and your stories. They will last forever and are a treasure to me. 
Love,
Your Last Girl

“Christ has taken the dark door of death and replaced it with the shining gate of life.
Death is a step into the light and glory of God.”
~Rev. Lance Mills (my Daddy)


Linking with Lisa-Jo Baker and the Five Minute Friday community on the prompt “last”.

34 Comments

  1. Amy Tilson
    August 23, 2013

    How little we knew last night as we sat and chatted about this very thing. I think this word was meant especially for you. Lisa-Jo had no idea the Providence that was guiding her to this word. You know I am with you in spirit through all of this painful walking. Love you!

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    • dayebydaye
      August 23, 2013

      How did I get so blessed to have friends who are so willing to walk this difficult journey with me? I love you, Amy! Nearly cried a bucket when I saw the prompt. I told you the tears come and go. But I love how personal God is. How he will reach through situations (and even a writing prompt!) and remind me how very close he is. What a great and gracious God. So blessed by you, sweet friend!!!

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  2. Lisa-Jo Baker
    August 23, 2013

    Oh Becky. no words. I know that last too well. Blessings on you today friend.

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    • dayebydaye
      August 23, 2013

      I know you do!! Thank you for your faithfulness in sharing your story as your words bless me as I walk this difficult road. Thank you for your compassion- it is a blessing!!!

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  3. Stephanie Pedde
    August 23, 2013

    Praying for comfort for you… as a nurse I’ve stood by many bedsides as last moments slipped by, and there’s a certain peace that’s only present with believers. Thanks for being vulnerable this week.

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    • dayebydaye
      August 23, 2013

      I know there are many nurses by his side and that is one of my prayers- that they will see that peace that I KNOW is evident in him and in my mama and my sister. Oh, that peace that transcends all understanding. What a blessing!
      Thanks for your prayers!!

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  4. Nikki @ Simplystriving
    August 23, 2013

    Oh the glory…
    Both of your Fathers shine brightly through you, friend.
    I’m honored to have caught a glimpse of your dad here. thank you.
    {HUGS}

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    • dayebydaye
      August 23, 2013

      Thank you for the way you honor me, Nikki! Blessed to know you!

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  5. elizabeth
    August 23, 2013

    Oh friend, what a difficult and beautiful thing the home going of our daddy or our mama is. The grief still hits at times, all these years later, like a sneaker wave does at the seashore. But, I know I would never, never want them back here, in this crazy sin-messed world.

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  6. Debi @ DebiStangeland.com
    August 23, 2013

    I am so sorry you are in this state of waiting, but oh what joy to know he is that much closer to actually seeing the Throne Of God. WOW! He is almost ready to hear the voices of the multitudes singing and praising Almighty God. “Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God, the All-Powerful, who was and who is, and who is still to come!” Hallelujah!!!

    I will be praying for you this week. You did your daddy great justice with this post. I can feel how close you are and I can truly sense what a wonderful man he is. May the Lord wrap His comforting arms around you during this difficult time. You are amazing!! {{{HUGS}}}

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  7. You+Me=Family
    August 23, 2013

    That was beautiful. I’m so very sorry you are going through this. The love you have for your daddy and the love he must have for you shines through every word. A father like that is an incedible blessing. Peace and love and prayers to you through this.

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  8. Jessica Hoover
    August 23, 2013

    Oh, just hugs and a quiet arm on your shoulder friend. I know this loss. It hurts in those hidden places. Sending prayers and love.

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  9. Denise
    August 23, 2013

    Precious one, so very sorry for the pain you are enduring. This is a beautiful, very heart touching post. God bless you.

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  10. Karrilee Aggett
    August 23, 2013

    Such a beautiful and honoring post… I agree – both of your Fathers shine brightly here… and I am sure that as they meet face to face, they will brag on you and share their favorite ‘Last Girl’ stories! Praying for comfort and peace, weeping (for the loss) and rejoicing (for his reunion of sorts) – as this legacy really calls for both!

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    • dayebydaye
      August 24, 2013

      You have made me cry! Your words are a blessing!

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  11. Red Chestnut Photography
    August 23, 2013

    Beautiful Becky! I’m in tears… thinking of you all so much this week. Karin

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    August 23, 2013

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    • Jennifer Peterson
      August 23, 2013

      Such a beautiful and honoring post to your daddy!! Love you and praying for you all.

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  13. Dana Butler
    August 23, 2013

    Becky –

    Totally, completely brand new to your blog and your story. Thank you for sharing it. And for welcoming and encouraging me last night at #FMFparty — even in the midst of your own painful season.

    No more words – other than that I’m just so sorry.

    May Jesus tangibly hold your heart and your family’s hearts thru this time.

    Blessings and love,
    Dana

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  14. Laura Wells
    August 23, 2013

    Becky. I hope writing brought comfort. Every time I read about your dad I am awed by the impact he had on you and others. Inheriting his love and life for God is a blessing. May you find peace in these final days. And when he is gone and you wish the world would stop, I pray it does.

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  15. thisgalsjourney
    August 23, 2013

    (((Hugs))) what a beautiful legacy he is leaving. Praying comfort for you, sweet friend.

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  16. Brianna R Wasson
    August 23, 2013

    This, my friend, is beautiful. All of it. The words that honor your daddy so well. Your daddy’s life. The way you love so well. My heart is so sad and full with you this week. I love you, my friend.

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  17. Katharine
    August 24, 2013

    Bless you tonight friend with peace and grace while you wait. Love you!

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  18. dayebydaye
    August 24, 2013

    Dear friends,
    Thank you for all of your comments today. I have been blessed by your words and comforted by your friendship! From the bottom of my heart- thank you!

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  21. BARBIE
    August 25, 2013

    I am so sorry for all that you are going through. I pray that God will hold you close during this time, as your daddy is ushered into HIs last moments here on earth, transitioning to his home in heaven. What a glorious moment, yet heartbreaking for those he will leave behind. May you sense His nearness and that peace which passes all understanding.

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    August 26, 2013

    I’m so sorry for this painful and sad time you are walking through, sweet sister…I’m praying for comfort for you and your family as you remember and say goodbye. What a beautiful tribute to your beloved daddy…your words are truly a privilege to read. Blessings and love.

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