|Me from my 3 year old's perspective!|
"I wish you would joke around more."
His words were not meant to be hurtful. But they were a confirmation of something my heart did not want to believe. I was not good enough.
I begged for him to see me- to really LOOK at me. Not that I used my words to do this. Instead, I tried to be who he wanted me to be.
But I wasn't. I was never meant to be different than I am.
And although it was a hard lesson to learn, I am so thankful that I did. Because I learned that my funny and my serious are a perfect mix for the family that my Father has given to me.
When my kids look at me, they never ask me to joke around more. They love my humor.
They take the time to really look at me, just as my Father does.
Can I admit something? This time next week, I will be at the Allume Conference with 400 other wonderful women who are committed to serving God through their writing. And I can't wait!
But at the same time, I'm scared. Because those "not good enough" thoughts still follow me. What if they look at me and discover that I am not who they want me to be? What if they wish that I was witty? Or cute? Or that I would joke around more?
I pray that others would take the time to really look at me. To see who God has made me to be- a mix of serious and funny- just right in His eyes.
And I guarantee that I will be looking at you in the same way and celebrating who God has made YOU to be!